His Passivity
Not standing up for me/for himself
Weak
Not supportive
Taking the easy way out

His Passivity
I looked for strength in my partners
Testing them to be strong for me
I created the strength inside myself but now I am tired

I wish to release my strength, to be held by a man. Strong and grounded.

Scared of the strength of the male due to abuse in past lives, deep fear of men from my perception of a situation that has passed in this life.
Then seeing the same disrespect and nastiness in another man, selfish control mirroring my anger for my past boyfriend who cheated. Disappointment.
Was I a controlling man in a past life? Was I raped or abused by men? Or did I rape and abuse as a man?

Time to release all the anger towards men that I carry.

For my father not supporting me the way I perceive he SHOULD
Should is not real. He gives me a lot of other support aside from emotional support.
Money. Safety. He supports me logistically.
Write a list of all things and ways he supports me.

Where my mind is not ready to see his love and support.
Feel it in my heart.
FEEL IT IN MY HEART!
Hug him and release into it!

Still feeling unsafe to do that. Speak about it. Read radical forgiveness.

BE
And accept my feelings about it.
It’s ok to not love him, to be angry, sad, disappointed, abandoned.
Connect to all feelings and BE. Allow, softness.

Less mind, more heart.
Connect to my heart.
When I release the anger towards my father and men my right hand side can truly get better.

Resistance. RELEASE RESISTANCE!