HUMBLED BY YOUR HEART
Mums place, Worthing, UK – 2nd April 2015
A sense of aloneness
Runs deep through my veins
A great sense of loss
And a heart full of pain
A craving to be held
Safe in your arms
Feel the softness of mum
Away from all harm
Instead I am standing
Here all alone
Lost in a world
In your empty home
Your memory is strong
Your heart is still here
Just too far to touch
I wish you were near
Present in everything
Yet just out of my reach
The emptiness is deep
Sucks me dry like a leech
Then sitting down
In your favourite chair
I look out of the window
And I feel you right here
Right here beside me
In all I can see
In all that surrounds me
I just need to be
Belongings on the side
Your form in the chair
Ornaments behind glass
All placed there with care
Piles of paper all ordered surround
Notes made with care
Placed in spots on the ground
Reminders of love
A smile or a joke
A letter to someone
Who needs a good poke
Intentions of love
Fill everything
I’m humbled by your heart
And how you gave it wings
In all that you did
And the care that you took
With all your notes
I could make up a book
To inspire others
To try and reach out
To touch others hearts
And spread love all about
A house full of ‘clutter’
It’s all perfectly placed
By a beautiful mother
So mindfully based
Such care in the details
So heart filled a space
To us it looks messy
But it’s all in its place
They don’t go unnoticed
You don’t need to fear
All these details I see
Are holding you near
I feel you beside me
Guiding my way
And love fills my heart
To brighten my day
The pain that is present
Will pass over time
And that sense of loss
Will fade into the night
Your heart will live on
In all that I do
And I’ll follow your way
In the memory of you
To live by my heart
When things will get tough
To choose to see light
In times that are rough
To push through the pain
That comes with this life
And treasure the things
That bring me the light
To see all the small things
And hold them so dear
That give me the reason
To push aside fears
To smile, laugh and love
And celebrate life
Small gifts in this world
That make us think twice
They brighten our days
And help us stand tall
And feel the divine
That surrounds us all
It’s the small things that matter
The ones made with love
That connect to our hearts
As gifts from above
We are always connected
My Mum and I
Me sitting here
Her flying free up on high
The aloneness has passed
Connection regained
The pain and the loss
Only love still remains
It’s time to get on
And let the love fill my day
Support me move forward
As I head on my way
Such gratitude fills me
For all that I feel
Divine love in my heart
Helping me heal
Guided by love
And teachings from you
With God in my heart
Will carry me through
Thank you for all
You’ve left within me
You’ve gone from this world
But now you fly free
To my beautiful soul, my humble Mother
Who had so much pain
But through it all
Could still see the beauty.
You are my inspiration
And my heart
I love you
And I miss you.
xxxxx